Blessed Beyond Belief

For those of you who don’t know yet, my mom, Jackie, went home to be with her Maker on September 26th after a short battle with brain cancer.  My mom was passionate about her family, her cockapoos and her Lord.  For those of you who own one of her dogs, you wouldn’t believe the amount of time, attention and love she put into her dogs.  She was proud of her puppies, and protective of where they would go.  Not everyone passed the Jackie Application Process.  :)  When she first found out about her tumor, she still had hope that she could keep “maybe one or two”, but quickly found out that wasn’t to be.  

March 19th she had most of the tumor (she had named Fred) removed, and on March 22nd, she was told that there was no cure for the type of tumor she had.  She was told that statistically she had 6-9 months left to live.  Although there were tears, my mother kept saying she knew “the end of the story”.  She knew that Earth was her temporary home.  I was looking back through her blog, and this is what she wrote after finding out her tumor was terminal.

I want you all to know there is a deep abiding peace with my Lord that is carrying me through this time...He is letting me see incredible things along the way that most people rush on by not recognizing his hand during their day
I have my speech and movement--slow tho it is right now and the cognitive skills to be able to clean up some loose ends.
I don't know how long I have but I do know who holds my future
Oh and I guess I should mention that at this time my husband is also quite ill...so a double whammy for my kids
I covet your prayers----that I continue to see God in all of this and bring Glory to His name

My mom truly was Blessed Beyond Belief, and she lived that out even in the face of death.  On behalf of her family, thank you for your thoughts and prayers over the past 6 months.  They have carried us through, and will continue to carry us through the loss of our mom. 

twists and turns of 8 months

so a quick recap of what has gone on the lst 8 months......that translated is from the beg of jan 2012
dave tuns yellow and gets diagnosed with auto  immune hepititus and starts a process to get a tranplant....then in feb 12my hand falls off the steering wheel and after natural treatment and an mri we find i have a fast growing brain tumor....so in march surgery was performed and all that can be done is done and we wait....meanwhile mr competition goes in and out of the hospital....well so did i in all honesty....but on sep 4 dave permanently pulled out of the race and met his maker.  I am still doing ok and takin one day at a time
thank you for you kind thots and wishes and prayers
jackie

twists and turns of 8 months

so a quick recap of what has gone on the lst 8 months......that translated is from the beg of jan 2012
dave tuns yellow and gets diagnosed with auto  immune hepititus and starts a process to get a tranplant....then in feb 12my hand falls off the steering wheel and after natural treatment and an mri we find i have a fast growing brain tumor....so in march surgery was performed and all that can be done is done and we wait....meanwhile mr competition goes in and out of the hospital....well so did i in all honesty....but on sep 4 dave permanently pulled out of the race and met his maker.  I am still doing ok and takin one day at a time
thank you for you kind thots and wishes and prayers
jackie

news on the doc front
tumor has grown but not to the bad part yet
another mri scheduled
chemo starts again today and that is the way we are going to manage right now...very confident with my brain surgeon's approach to this blip in life.......but those of you who know me well know to whom i give honor and glory to

 Aug 15th

  last pup from me...isn't he cute...I am hoping to get well enough before he sells to see him 

on the medical front....hada rough 5 weeks here but hopefully that is past and we move on...a new mri is scheduled for friday but i dont think fred has stepped out of his boundary's yet

will let ou all know after we get results

It has  been a while since I last added to my blog...why does someone need to apologize when they have been absent from posting???? Or feel like they need too apologize?
Well I am not going to do that :)
I got this picture of Henry that I thot was so cute that he just had to get famous on my blog :)
On the medical front....
Dave made it on the liver transplant list so now we wait for his numbers to go up or for a spot of cancer to grow which moves him up on the list...so it is a good news/bad news kind of thing
As for me...the post MRI showed no growth so we wait for 3 months and then mri again to see if fred is behaving...once growth starts back up again....well then it becomes a matter of time....but until then.......we do what we can and live one day at a time
I have been a sewing fiend in the mean time.....there are 5 quilts ready to be quilted so will take pics when they come back
Until then...I keep pluggin away enjoying each day

puppy heaven

pretty gnarly pic of the head scar...but notice the puppies instead...they were my last hurrah and they were GORGEOUS!!!!!!!

 I got so many puppy kisses from these guys!

 one black and tan...

 and the rest these wonderful sables and whites...which I had been trying to get with other combos

 reminds me of my Grace

 they so remind me of their mother

 kisses and nippies on the nose

 i look frightened that they are going to take them away

isn't she beautiful?

puppy play date

Rare opportunities come along sometimes....when you have some of what we consider here the most basic of things taken from you learn to enjoy some of the former things with a touch more nostalgia and grace and relish those moments....even tho they are short and sweet. I got to go play with puppies from Amy yesterday!!!!!    They are six weeks and stinkin cute! Or at least I think so :) *add a BIG smile here!

Tessa and a puppy playing!

Wish you could see this guys face cuz he is one of the cutest black and tans I have ever seen....with puppy kisses galore to lavish on anyone

brothers don't bite...they hug :)

nope that isn't me standing letting pups run between my feet

Basketful of pups....dig that red color!

Well for now I will stop with the pics...hope to get more when I see the last batch this weekend

family and the mask

the fam with the new t-shirts

saying on shirts

My biggest problem is that the left part of my brain has nothing right in it and the right part of my brain has nothing left in it.

my mask

all ready to go
all strapped in

A new normal?

Wow....been a while since I posted that the format has changed :( But it seems easy to navigate
So all my friends who follow me...I have some news for you....it isn't good news so if you don't want to continue reading then stop and go do something else with your day
Ok....here it goes...on Feb 9, 2012 I had an unusual thing happen...my hand fell off the wheel...normally not something to worry about but this decided to be something,...and something big. Through all of this to make a somewhat long story short--I have a brain tumor that altho they operated on it they cannot remove all of it. I am doing some radiation and chemo but that is only to slow growth of it
My life as I knew it has been changed in an instant!
I no longer can do my pups...I can't even care for an adult dog so I am finished with my fur babies...that was one of the hardest things to let go of but it had to happen
BUT!!!!!!! I want you all to know there is a deep abiding peace with my Lord that is carrying me through this time...He is letting me see incredible things along the way that most people rush on by not recognizing his hand during their day
I have my speech and movement--slow tho it is right now and the cognitive skills to be able to clean up some loose ends.
I don't know how long I have but I do know who holds my future
Oh and I guess I should mention that at this time my husband is also quite ill...so a double whammy for my kids
I covet your prayers----that I continue to see God in all of this and bring Glory to His name










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